Have you ever been really inspired by an idea? That feeling where you can’t wait to get started and all the pieces just fall into place in your mind, there’s no effort involved and you can feel how the future is going to unfold?
That happened for me this morning and I spent the day working on my idea.
I’ve done this before and it’s the most amazing mental space to work in. Work becomes joyful, fun and energising. It’s my favourite way to work.
So far, I haven’t managed to sustain these feelings to the fruition of one of my ideas. I get scared and start doubting myself and then I wait for the next idea to strike.
What does this have to do with joy?
Well, I guess the obvious thing is that working from a place of inspiration feels incredibly joyful, but it’s also interesting that the inspiration – and the joyful buzzy nature of the work – doesn’t last all the way to completion. At least it doesn’t for me.
This morning, I started reading a book by the woman who trained me as a HeartHealing practitioner, Natasha Leigh Bray. She is an incredible healer herself and is the founder of the School of Healing Mastery. Her book, “Your next six figures” is about the various ways we sabotage ourselves on the way to achieving our goals.
Although my journey towards joyful living is teaching me that joy can be expressed with or without accomplishment, I also need to acknowledge that days like today feel thrilling and wonderful and I believe these days exist to guide us toward doing the big things we dream of.
I don’t want to sit around being blissed out all day and feeling grateful for the blades of grass on the ground. Well, no, I do. It would be nice to be the sort of person who saw reasons for gratitude absolutely everywhere. But I also want to expand into the space I feel is there for me to expand into – the space that both inspires and scares the shit out of me.
I guess that’s where the next piece about joy comes in. After reading Natasha’s chapter on “The Overprotector Saboteur”, I sat and wrote about why the chapter had resonated with me. The revelations came thick and fast, and I found joy in those too because they exposed the patterns behind my fears and all the many times I’ve held myself back.
It made me see how much joy there is in the struggles we face because without them we learn nothing about how to mine the jewels we hold within us – we have no reason to go searching for them.
Today I made excellent progress towards my biggest dream. I am 100% certain I will fall on my face multiple times before bringing that dream to life but I suspect that facing those falls with gratitude for their ability to teach me rather than resentment for their ability to humiliate me, will change everything. It won’t just get me back on my feet faster, it’ll make me far more likely to become someone who brings a sense of ease, peace and (every now and then) joy into the room with me.
It remains my intention to continue learning and growing until I become such a person.